DisappointmentsApr 23, '09 3:34 PM
for everyoneDisappointments
I’m not an expert in this matter. I just have one thing to say about it (for now). It seems no matter what happens, parents disappoint their kids and kids disappoint their parents. For the record, I’m listening to maroon5’s “this love”.
In all fairness, my dad told me I could not disappoint him. I beg to differ, but I know he’s gonna keep telling himself that until it’s true. Not that I don’t believe my dad. He has never lied to me. But I feel that he’s at the time of his life where emotion will get the best of him. I don’t know if being sentimental is the result of aging.
And there’s also the fact that I’m not his daughter anymore. No, I’m not denying he’s my dad. But I don’t feel like me anymore. There are times I would get these spells that make me feel I don’t belong. It’s like a gust of wind, you won’t know until it hits you. Anyway, how can he not get disappointed in me if I’m not who he thinks I am.
Besides, my parents have disappointed me more than once as I know I have them, although denial reigns in both parties. I guess it’s because no matter how much we get disappointed, we keep hoping and loving. No matter how much it hurts, no matter how the disappointment piles up it’s all nothing compared to what else we feel, what else we have as a family. So there.
for everyoneDisappointments
I’m not an expert in this matter. I just have one thing to say about it (for now). It seems no matter what happens, parents disappoint their kids and kids disappoint their parents. For the record, I’m listening to maroon5’s “this love”.
In all fairness, my dad told me I could not disappoint him. I beg to differ, but I know he’s gonna keep telling himself that until it’s true. Not that I don’t believe my dad. He has never lied to me. But I feel that he’s at the time of his life where emotion will get the best of him. I don’t know if being sentimental is the result of aging.
And there’s also the fact that I’m not his daughter anymore. No, I’m not denying he’s my dad. But I don’t feel like me anymore. There are times I would get these spells that make me feel I don’t belong. It’s like a gust of wind, you won’t know until it hits you. Anyway, how can he not get disappointed in me if I’m not who he thinks I am.
Besides, my parents have disappointed me more than once as I know I have them, although denial reigns in both parties. I guess it’s because no matter how much we get disappointed, we keep hoping and loving. No matter how much it hurts, no matter how the disappointment piles up it’s all nothing compared to what else we feel, what else we have as a family. So there.